Romance is a Stage

The Essence of Romance

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Lucy in the Sky — Romance is a Stage

I want to say a bit about romance today, and how it is a stage one progresses through, rather than something “in and of itself.” Before I get there, let me mention a few things, and remind you of some resources.

If you’ve been reading my stuff for a while, and many of you have been around here since the days of Into the Centre, some of this will be familiar.

To begin with, there are four free booklets available on the website. Three of the four are about establishing and deepening your understanding of elegant relating. I’m playing around with the two relationships booklets, thinking I might turn them into a book. Or perhaps better put, mixing them into a book I’m already working on — they will serve as a section in a book called Simple Presence. There is another booklet, The List of 50, that recently became a book called, Getting EXACTLY the Relationship You Want. The booklet is still available — I’ve rewritten it into a summary of the book.

If I were to put the three booklets into logical order, it would be The List of 50, Building Deep and Lasting Relationships, and The Responsible, Compassionate Relationship.

The List of 50 came about when I was 32 — way back in 1983. Up to that point, I’d made a career of strange relationships. Certainly from university on, I quite rigidly followed what I described in last week’s article — the path that leads from lust to romance. Which is not to say I couldn’t tell the difference. At 32, I became painfully aware of my past tendency to want to domesticate lust-driven relationships.

Let me give you one really blatant illustration.

I went off to university at 17, and would say that I was book smart and life dumb. By that point, I really hadn’t failed of much of anything I put my mind to, and on those rare occasions when I screwed up, mom and dad were right there to fix things. Despite having a full ride scholarship to any university in New York State, I decided to go to Elmhurst College, 20 miles outside of Chicago. This was certainly the first time I was away from home for an extended period of time, and it didn’t take me long to get into piles of trouble, some of which I ought to tell you about someday. I’d saved up a few hundred dollars (remember, this was 1968, and that seemed like a lot of money) so my first awakening happened when I had to actually buy textbooks. I was quickly broke, and took a job at Walgreens — a drugstore chain.

It was there that I met Irene.

Back then I had a bad habit of throwing out anything that had to do with a failed relationship, so I can’t show you a picture of her — but let me just say that she was drop-dead gorgeous. I won’t bore you with the details, but I took her to my spring Fraternity dance, and the music stopped when we walked in the room. I was deeply, head over heels, in lust. I had no problem basking in the reflected glory of the woman on my arm.

So, here’s the reason I’m telling you this story.

I was at Elmhurst College to get a degree in religion and psychology — and my intention was to be a Minister (which, of course, did happen, albeit somewhat delayed) — and one of the things I had decided was that sex was going to wait until marriage. (I changed my mind a month or so later, but that’s not part of the Irene story.)

A few days after the dance, Irene invited herself up to my dorm room. At one point, I excused myself to go to the john, and when I came back, Irene was undressed and lying on my bed. Nothing much happened, but that’s not the point.

What did happen was that I stuck to my convictions, and took Irene home, despite what I really wanted to do. A day or so later went home to Buffalo for Spring Break. I spent a lot of time thinking about what had happened, and about what I wanted to happen, and I kept bumping against the “rules” I had set up for myself. Being somewhat self-aware back then, I was quite capable of recognizing my lust, but I couldn’t quite figure out what to do with it.

I can actually remember the feeling of a very strange penny dropping.

I wanted this woman, badly, and had no paradigm that would allow me to have sex with her. So, as he finally comes to the point, I decided that my logical choice was to marry her.

In other words, I tried to sanitize the lust into romance, in order to get what I really wanted.

Irene was Roman Catholic, and that wouldn’t do for a Protestant minister, so I went back to Illinois with three or four books under my arm, intent on converting her. (I’m actually sitting here laughing as I write this. Yikes! What an arrogant little guy was back then.) I handed her the books. She looked at them, and got really quiet. She said, “But, I’m just here for the sex!” Shocked, (as that approach to things had actually never occurred to me,) I ended the relationship on the spot.

Nuts, eh? Yet, I think it’s still pretty common. Many of my clients are in relationship with someone for exactly this reason. I hear a lot of, “When we first met, I was really turned on by him, but now I’m not so sure.” The piece they don’t get is that this is a part of the natural progression of relationships. The level of “charge” goes down over time because the object of our desire, emphasis on object, becomes a real person. As this de-objectification process escalates, at around the second year, a real sense of futility can set in.

Anyway, romance is a stage that emerges out of the miasma of emotions and hormones.

Romance is lust, sanitized.

As such, it’s simply a stage that the wise “transcend and include.” In excellent relationships, both romance and lust are players in a much bigger play. Unfortunately, most people get bogged down here, and never move past romance to something more useful.

I got a neat Facebook posting today, from an old friend — she gave me an update on the last 10 years of her life.

She wrote, “I found the article you sent out this week pretty appropriate. I have been part of serial romances in the past 5 years. I do see the value of them as healing tools though, re-opening those old wounds for deeper healing to take place. I kind of think of it along homeopathic lines “like curing like.” I don’t know if you agree with this philosophy.”

Of course, I have no idea of any of the dynamics of her serial romances. I just thought it highly appropriate, given this article. Romance, as we’ve noted, is a stage. In the early going of this stage, the norm is to be starstruck and half blind. In other words, you look at the person you are in romance with, and you only see what you want to see — a confirmation that this person is your perfect match.

I got another e‑mail yesterday, from a semi famous relationship coach. He was announcing his impending marriage — after knowing his intended for less than six months. He passed the relationship by some of the coaches he trains, and got the expected range of response. Some were horrified, others danced jubilantly around the altar of, “Ain’t love grand!” Anytime anyone raised a question about the relationship, the coach defaulted to, “She is my soulmate.” Which is another way of saying he’s deeply enmeshed in romance. It’s not to say the relationship will not work out — time, and only time, will tell.

The important thing in any relationship is not the places where we agree. The growing edge is always in how we deal with the confrontation that comes from differing opinions.

Let me show you how this goes. In North America, approximately 50% of all marriages end in divorce. An even more interesting statistic is that 75% of second marriages also end in divorce. 25% of third marriages end in divorce, so obviously we get more clever with practice. The reason, I think, for the 75% figure is that most people come out of relationships blaming their partners for the failure. They therefore go into the next relationship and do the same dumb stuff, and then are amazed when that relationship tanks too.

Romance leads to conflict, or, said differently, conflict is a stage that follows romance — 100% of the time.

What we do when conflict hits varies. One choice, the statistically most prevalent choice, is to leave. This is what my friend calls serial romance. Others call it serial monogamy. You get to a wall marked “Conflict,” and you’re given the choice of door number one, door number two, or door number three.

Door # 1–The wide first door is marked EXIT.” Now it doesn’t matter what excuse you give for exiting. “I’ve learned all I can from this relationship,” is no different from “I can’t stand the pain of this conflict so I’m leaving,” as far as the actual result goes.

Door # 2–Of the 50% who stick it out, 40 to 45% choose apathy as their way of dealing with the conflict. The picture I get of this is typical of what most marriages looked like prior to the 50s or 60s — when divorce became socially acceptable. This picture is like “Father Knows Best,” where the mother waltzes around in a house dress, and dad comes home, and retreats to his home office or den, there to dispense wisdom, and to sighed deeply, over the foibles of his family. You might say that the 70s version of this is Archie and Edith, sitting 3 feet apart, watching TV, and often being miles apart in understanding, compassion, and self-awareness. In other words, there is no open warfare — there’s a polite silence you could cut with a knife.

Which is not to say that within that 40 to 45%, there is no fighting. Most of the couples I see are still caught in the loop of thinking that their partner should be what they want them to be. They come in to therapy to get me to change their partner back into the person they were in lust, then in romance with.

All relational fighting is specifically about this: getting the other (person or situation) to change so that “I” don’t have to.

Door # 3–Acceptance and Curiosity–The remaining 5%, the people who choose elegant and full-bodied relating, recognize that the point of relating is self-exploration. That’s why I love my friend’s expression,

… re-opening those old wounds for deeper healing to take place.”

Yet, to do this, you have to be willing to stick around — to work through the sticking points in your own personality as opposed to prematurely leaving. “I can’t do this anymore” is often code for, “I am unwilling to confront this about myself.”

The conflict that is a part of romance is this: the more we trust our partner, the more of ourselves we are willing to reveal–and what’s left to reveal is the stuff we tried to hide.

In the initial stage of romance, we only or mostly show what we perceive as the “good stuff.” If we are naive, we see our partner only through the eyes of romance, and think the way that they are presenting themselves is the way they actually are. This is naïve, because people in romance are predisposed to show the stuff that will keep the other person around. As time goes by, little bits of the other stuff begin to trickle and slip out. Initially, this is chalked up to the other person having a bad day, or being off their feed, as the observing partner desperately looks for a way to excuse the behavior–as opposed to integrating the behavior into their view of the other.

Eventually, the partners grow so comfortable with each other that the other shoe drops. The “other stuff” becomes a flood of behavior that is the other side of the person’s personality—the other side of the other person’s “good stuff.”

Typically, at this stage, clients tell me, “My partner lied to me!”

What’s actually happening is that the partner is finally telling the truth. Each of us is who we are, not who we pretend to be. If one chooses door three, acceptance and curiosity, this new material can be incorporated into how we see our partner, and we can begin to notice how we make ourselves uncomfortable.

For me, I spent decades trying to get my partners to become who I wanted them to be. In 1983, with the advent of the List of 50, I decided that from that point on I would only hang around with people who were not in need of fixing, but were rather people who were intensely interested in being self responsible. A month after writing my List, Darbella and I became a couple. Old soul, slow learner, that’s me.

Next article, we’ll talk a bit more about how conflict can lead to self responsibility and self understanding in a relationship built upon acceptance and curiosity.

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So, how does this week’s article sit with you? What questions do you have? Leave a comment or question!

About the Author: Wayne C. Allen is the web\‘s Simple Zen Guy. Wayne was a Private Practice Counsellor in Ontario until June of 2013. Wayne is the author of five books, the latest being The. Best. Relationship. Ever. See: –The Phoenix Centre Press

2 thoughts on “Romance is a Stage”

  1. Hi Wayne

    I heard a nice definition of romantic a few years ago -
    “everyday events and activities given erotic overtones”.
    People have such diverse views of what they find romantic but in practice I suspect all that varies is their feeling about the other person at the time.

    I particularly liked your observation “The growing edge is always in how we deal with the confrontation that comes from differing opinions.” Ain’t that true. Regrettably, so many folk seem to feel that difference or conflict should not occur (‘shoulding’ on themselves again).

    The ‘perfect Christian’ stereotype they seek to be never has any conflict — just like it never has authentic people or personal growth.

    Im my maturity I am feeling that the Church has a great deal to answer for. I have been reading Jonathon Haight’s interesting recent contribution to this on The Edge. Did you see it? You might be interested.
    http://www.edge.org/discourse/moral_religion.html

    Regards, Peter

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    • Hey Peter,
      Always great hearing from you. I’ll check out the article you linked.
      I agree with you comments. My next articles will likely address the “conflict” issue — and learning to accept that I (and others) are human as opposed to ‘nice,’ or conflict free. I see this one played out in Bodywork all the time — people just filled with, say sadness or anger, and just straining themselves not to express it and be done with it. Because good people don’t get angry. I just laugh and keep pushing…
      IN the and, it’s all about acceptance, of self and other, as each is. If that is not possible, I don’t see the point of the relationship…
      Trusting all is well with you “Down Under…”
      Warmly, Wayne

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