The discipline to look inside
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So, here we go with the last few self discipline ideas.
As I said last week, this is a hard sell for most, as there is the mistaken notion that life is “supposed to” be easy. Exercising restraint and diligence is not the norm.
First, let me unpack restraint.
We all do stuff we later regret. The point of having the sensation of regret is to fix in our minds the negative consequences of the errant behaviour. Contending against this is our ego voice, which is hell bent on getting us to stay stuck while endlessly repeating the silly behaviour.
Restraint is stopping doing what does not work.
As opposed to justifying it, blaming something or someone, or just plain doing it again out of spite or stubbornness.
It’s much the same with the 4 items to follow. Each requires diligence to practice and restraint to resist coming up with 10,000 excuses.
Just as a note, most people exercise restraint by using it to resist doing what they need to do. In other words, they know, for example, that being more open and honest would be a good thing, and they then generate a long list of excuses to resist making the change. So, again, most clients I know stay stuck not for lack of understanding, but rather out of resisting the new, the scary of the chargy.
4. begin a practice
Now, this can actually be anything, but we need, desperately, to be committed to some form of “training discipline.” I’m fond of eastern approaches, such as yoga, meditation, tai, chi, and the martial arts.
Using meditation as an example, it does no good to fiddle at it. You gotta do it regularly — most centres suggest no less than 5 times a week. The point, however, (and this applies to all the items on the list,) is not to grimly sit there, sucking up pain.
The point is to sit, while observing yourself.
The same could be said for any of the above techniques. I notice at yoga class that I am often quite deeply “into” the pose — into the feel of the energy flow. This is different from watching other, mentally griping about the length or depth of the pose, wondering what’s for dinner, etc. If I go there, and I do, briefly, I find that my connection to myself disappears into the thought of “other things.”
The point of a disciplined practice is to become aware of our bodily sensations, and the working of our minds. In other words, none of these practices “quiet the mind and still the body.” Quite the contrary, one becomes aware of the endless flux and low of life. One begins to actually notice the moment-by-moment-ness of living. This in turn helps us to grasp life (and others!) loosely, and then to let go.
5. be yourself — accept yourself
Sometimes I hate what I see
Because we’ve all been brought up in “judgement-land,” it’s no wonder we are so hard on ourselves. This approach has support in Freudian circles, and remember, Freud was pretty much the forebear of modern therapy, and modern, Western culture.
I was talking with a client the other day, and he mentioned that a Freudian he knew spent an entire seminar encouraging people to figure out which parent was to blame for their inability to cope. My approach is different.
I suggest that my clients notice when they are doing stuff that gets them lousy results, and then to do something different. Now, it may well be, for example, that a client learned to yell from his dad, but this is totally irrelevant to what one does now.
The authentic person simply says, again and again, “Yes, I have a propensity to (whatever,) and this time I choose not to.”
That is the acceptance part.
I want to know who I am and what I tend toward, and my reason for discovering this stuff is to accept that this is a part of me. The self-discipline part is that, despite the propensity toward, say, criticizing others, I can choose, this time, and again and again, another path.
Being yourself is enacting yourself.
There are whole aspects of our personalities that never see the light of day, usually because someone, some time, told us they didn’t like that aspect. I encourage you to be much more experimental with your personality, your skills and your desires.
6. open yourself up
This is what happens working with a good Zen teacher or a competent therapist.
These relationships provide the endless opportunity for dialogue and revelation.
Same with making a total honesty communication pact with your intimate partner. The door to who you are remains tightly sealed, from the inside. Only you can open the lock.
This requires self-discipline because self-revelation carries with it the potential for disappointment. Nonetheless, being willing to let down our walls is essential for learning about what lies just under our conscious awareness.
In bodywork, there is the potential to learn about your emotions and feelings, tightness and charge. And boy, does that stuff scare a lot of people. I kind of laugh, because I know that this kind of work is essential for being whole and honest. Yet, again, letting others know what’s going on “in there” flies in the face of what we have been trained to do.
All I can say is, find someone you trust, and do it.
7. use “don’t know mind”
“Don’t know mind” is exactly what it sounds like. It’s actually a lifestyle choice - I choose to stop myself from thinking I have a clue about anyone else, and I acknowledge that I really don’t know all that much about myself either.
I acknowledge a life-walk of learning more about myself in the only way I can ‑buy digging around inside, non-judgementally. With assistance, with honesty, and through letting others know what, provisionally, I have discovered.
Everyone else must be let off the hook. You do not know what’s up for another, and never will! Not only that, but if someone tells you what’s up, you immediately filter that through your own experiences, and what you end up with is your experience of what the other person went through. This is not the same thing!
This does not get better with practice. The best you can hope for is to listen, to store the data, and to thwart your rush to judgement. “Hmm. So that is what is up for you. Thank you for sharing” is about the best any of us can do.
Instead, remember that stuff and experience “just is.” See, hear, experience, and move on. In the end, nothing much is happening, anyway